Its so hard to describe how I feel without sounding like I’m depressed. There is so much on my plate right now…its a battle to maintain proper focus. And in the midst of it all, I feel like I am not making any strides in the things that are of most importance to me. I guess this is what transition is all about. I should have learn by now to just trust in God’s perfect timing and His purpose in the here and now…but let me be honest…its easier said than done. One distraction after another seems to take my mind’s attention and energy away from goals.
The fact that no one’s journey is the same is both the beauty of life and the root of so much frustration. While seeing my friends make progress and hear the story of their wishes granted is awesome…it doesn’t give me the sense of direction I need. I know everyone’s path is different. But a general map or the lifting of the Fog of War surrounding my life would be nice.
I trust God. I look at how He has lead my life in the past year and truly believe that He will make everything beautiful in His time. Its the issue of waiting….The being blind to parts of the work in progress.
I joked with friends that I was getting a Masters degree in patience. I think now I’ve started on the PHD.
One day you’ll call me Dr. Patient, but tonight the name is Dr. Eager.